Tower
Waiting on the edgeHow foolish I must lookMind full of mistakesDriven by worryLet it goYou are only here nowNothing existsForget everythingRemember the lightJust jump
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November 15th 2020 6:45am Sunday
Everyday shit, finally getting back into a groove of having at least some time to type out all this shit. Hey maybe what this all means is that for the next five, ten, twenty years you are going to be a mediocre writer but then boom you get the deal of a lifetime to write …
November 9th 2020 6:59am Monday
Just finished up yesterdays page and I got to a moment trying to synthesize all the stuff I have in my head about life, purpose, and well being. I watched a YouTube video that compiles all of Russ’s best lines on pessimism from true detective. I never really analyzed the one line he has about …
October 23rd 2020 Friday 5:13am
What good is it if you ain’t foolin’ in it? It can be anything, surely you have caught on by now. The flavors range from bright to dull. Why not prepare to create the inevitability now rather than disregard your heart in hopes someone else’s might comes along. Prepare. Wow, that’s a bold statement, without …
October 22nd 2020 Thursday 5:55am
Got that angel number today. Maybe it means something. Maybe it is time to present my ideas to a larger audience. More that the ideas, the way in which I explain the things is what really matters and what I am generally fearful of. I act as if I have to take a writing class …
October 21st 2020 Wednesday 5:33am
I all of a sudden feel really agitated. Woke up feeling physically great, mentally a bit scattered but good. Now that I am taking a moment to navigate my thoughts there is nothing but anger and regret present. I could go into all the same shit stories and reasons why I am this way and …
October 19th 2020 Monday 5:23am
It occurs that I over think the feelings and under feel the thoughts. If that makes any sense. More often than not I am speaking from my mind. It is a trap I can’t quite decide if I was thrown into or created along the way to survive. Either way it seems to be a …
October 18th 2020 5:33am Sunday
This house makes a lot of house noises, the heater, the fridge, the neighbors, the kitchen lights, the road outside. Even in moments of what seems like silence, something is always buzzing, clicking, swirling, creaking, clanging. I have gotten as used to it as I can. So it goes. Sometimes I sit here for minutes …
October 16th 2020 Friday 5:23am
After weeks of doing this thing it feels like it’s always Friday, or Monday or what have you. The silly thoughts of tiredness and loneliness are swirling around my brains giving me a sense that today somehow already has a low vibe to it. Then again every day can’t be a high vibe. You state …
October 14th 2020 5:22am Wednesday
Courage is overcoming your fears. I pulled the seven of wands today, courage. The card represents acknowledging your fears and having the courage to face them. It gets me thinking about what I fear the most. I have recently shifted my mindset towards defining things as worry rather than fear because most things I tend …